"Let go of frustration and anger"

The admonition above showed up in today's happy hint from The Reach Approach, of which I've subscribed. I actually use one of the videos on 'Asking for Nothing and Receiving Everything' for my usual daily yoga practice, where I've gained so much clarity of mind and opportunities to exercise myself , and I've made some insights into my own existence here (i.e., why things happen this way and not that way, why am I alive now, etc etc etc). And in the process of continuing to do my yoga practice, I've shared into the whole universe my questions, my frustrations, my appreciation, my dreams, my longings and I've seen how and when the universe responded accordingly to my actions.

Actually, I'm guessing that among the blessings I've received included this particular admonition. Before I read it, I was toiling on cleaning the mess that my weekend caregiving client did in the bathroom before I showed up early in the morning. It was a disgusting, terrible, stinking experience, and more all rolled into one bad experience at the start of a work day. I've assumed that my lessons from my yoga practice as well as the continuing wealth of experience I've been gaining while I'm still alive has taught me about the value of keeping cool in my attitude and in keeping away from being angry. Today's early work is so far among the worst days I could have at my part-time work over the weekend.

Of course, the money I earn from this gig helps me pay part of my bills (the rest are covered by my earnings from my business) here in NYC. And while I was cleaning the poop, I thought of quitting from the job, and I was convincing myself that I could actually use the time to spend growing and making profits from my business (mainly writing works and online distribution). And I saw my client who was relieved that he had a bowel movement before I came today in his place; I knew right away that he was relieved greatly. It's a health issue, among so many he's got (hence he needs a caregiver like myself and my friend who does the work Monday to Friday). But he smelled bad, so that I had to clean him up and had him getting a shower right away, which was an impossibility with him as he dislikes taking a shower (it's never an easy process with him, which is common with the elderly). And my heart went with him as he needed help, which I could provide. I didn't want him to look bad as both of us are human beings, who deserve the best in life. And we've become friends, despite these annoyances that happen every time I'm here, which I assume is part and parcel of doing this kind of job. 

And I continued practicing deep breathing as all these tasks came to fore and had to be done by myself. Realistically, this is my situation and I've been dealing with it now. While taking a pause, I saw this admonition from The Reach Approach. I went on continuing with the work, which activity has helped me manage my fears, concerns, insecurities as well get me to accomplish what I've wanted with life. This gig, thankfully, is just a part of the kind of business I'm into. It's not typical, of course. And I don't want to do anything typical anymore----the idea of being employed full time does not excite me at all. I know that for sure, after having been employed full time for at least 20 years. I know lots of other bad things may still happen between now and the many more days that I'm still around here. But then again, a lot more of the good tidings takes place as well on the whole. I'm grateful for the gentle reminder, which came just at the right time. The great and loving Lord of the whole universe has responded and taken chances again with me. Thankfully, I'm still very much around.

It could have been worst, you know.